It's been a while...

Hmmm... I didn't realise how long it's been since my last post.

I seem to be on the mend now, thank goodness, but the past few months have have been tough, emotionally and physically.

I have missed writing. I think about writing everyday + literally jott the notes down, but I never get here - I haven't touched my laptop in weeks (until now that is). I have been using my work computer for essential net 'stuff', just was not interested in being involved with others.

Lack of motivation + depression played a huge part during my absense. The most important person in my life helped me realise that my unhappiness was not the cause of other peoples doing, it was myself who I was angry + upset with. I was blaming everyone around me for my unhappiness + pushing them away. These beautiful people were only trying to help me + did in fact love + care for me. I started looking at myself... looking within myself + discovered a whole new approach to life. I feel amazing.

So... what's been happenin with me?

I had the best Easter long weekend. On the Thursday after work, I met up with a friend for dinner + a cocktail. Her friend later met up with us + we went to an Irish pub where an awesomely down to earth band were playing + a glass of house wine was only $3!!! Sadly, the band played their last song, but we managed to have a few drinks with the members. We were invited back to their place for drinks + listen to Fleetwood Mac Rumours (the best album of all time). We assisted the band in loading the truck with their gear + jammed accoustics til 5:30am. I walked a very long way home, but watched the gorgeous sun rise.
After I slept for hours into the day, Iain + I cleaned the entire house, bagging up old stuff/baggage/junk whatever you want to call it. It felt so good to let go of things, decluttering our workspaces, our bedroom and living room. When we finished, it felt like we could breathe again, it was a fantastic feeling.
I arranged to see my dads family for Easter Sunday, we had a great day - we had not seen them in over a year. They only live 15 minutes from us as we found out.

I spent the whole of the next weekend with my grandmother. The weekend was full of historical stories of my families past - the depth of this information is incredible. I was completely gobsmacked. (I will write about it seperately soon). I took Grandma to a garden expo on the Saturday. The rest of the weekend we cooked, discussed the family history, ate heaps of food, watched crime shows and cooked some more. Cooking is both our passion - something special we both share with one another.

This past weekend we had Bella, Iain's daughter. I haven't mentioned her before - I felt it was too personal. But she is a huge part of my life + there is soooo much I would like to share about her. She is only six, but the most beautiful soul + best friend - we must go way back in a past life. She has been in my life since she was two years old - + no, before you start assuming I stole someones husband/boyfriend I didn't, it's not such a complicated situation for our family, but to others they just don't get it. You will be happy to know we - meaning Bella's mum, Iain + myself get along like a house on fire. Will explain another time... Anyhoo... we had Bella this weekend. We took her to gymnastics, but suprisingly it was closed, due to the ANZAC day public holiday (though, we'd checked their website + it clearly stated open every public holiday except Christmas and Easter... go figure). So we went to this awesome~tastic seafood market (AMAZING seafood!!!) got some crab, oysters + fish + went on our merry way home. Gardening took up most of our day, then a seafood indulgence in the late afternoon. Ian's mum came over for dinner, I made Tuna pasta bake and vegies (recipe to come). Sunday we had a big family BBQ with my rellies by the beach. Bella spent the whole day - except lunch - hunting for hermit crabs with the other kids. T'was a nice relaxing time with family.

Today, I have written up my 'diet plan'. I have dramatically increased my waist line... + everywhere else... + am fed up with feeling fat + frumpy. I am starting a low carb diet, eating mostly meat, vegies, fruit etc... none of my addictions - bread, potatos, PASTA, rice etc etc etc. I was looking through the fat + calorie count book by Allan Borushek, which also lists carb and fibre counts. I was so shocked when I checked the foods I eat on a daily basis - no wonder I look like a heffa!! So 'tis time to take action. Tomorrow is the day... new beginnings... happy days.

We're more or less up to date... :D

Millie <3